One Year Ago

I saw two lines appear on a cheap pregnancy test. Two more showed on an expensive test. I woke up my husband by shoving both in his face. I cried. He cried. We did that for awhile, overwhelmed and in total disbelief that it was real. Our year ago on July 20 2017, our 'one …

Dear Noah,

9.43am. It's a shitty day. You've been asleep for ten minutes, after a two and a half hours of fighting tooth and nail to be awake. It's not that you want to be up, you just don't know how to switch off and let yourself get some rest. As your Mum, it's my job to …

“Dreams Do Come True.”

Years spent wishing and waiting, months of trying and failing, days filled with hope and hopelessness...none of them prepared me for the moment it happened. It took five cycles of negative pregnancy tests before I learned to save myself the heartache and wait for my period to arrive. Every cycle, the last three tests waited but …

“One Day…”

December 06, 2016. Our journey to getting pregnant began. January 12, 2017. The first negative pregnancy test. February 27, 2017. The day I hoped to tell DH that we were pregnant. April 25, 2017. The day that we took a long walk on the beach and decided that July would be our month, that we …

Life Admin

Okay, I only did one thing. But it was a big thing. A thing is going to make other things a lot easier. Like baby things. I paid off my car loan! It was a two year loan which I paid off in half the time by making several lump sum payments in addition to …

Another Month, Another Chance.

July marks the eighth month of trying to get pregnant. Each month we've tried something different to improve our chances: Fertility Apps (Clue, Ovia and Fertility Friend), ovulation strips, Sperm Meets Egg Plan, pineapple core, Basal Body Temping, Preseed and Evening Primrose Oil. In cycle seven, we had to take a break from sex so …

When It Rains, It Pours.

This time last week, I was crying after an appointment with my osteopath. During my session, he had very gently asked "Is getting pregnant a good idea for you? Are you sure your body will cope?" It wasn't the first time I'd heard that. I was in my teens when my GP tried to find …

“Now begin in the middle…”

"and later learn the beginning; the end will take care of itself - Harlan Ellison" "So you want to have a baby?" The gynecologist bore a striking resemblance to the actor Michael Cera, albeit with a deep tan and a faint Indian accent. Ten minutes earlier, we had overheard the nurses congratulating him on the …